I am honestly shocked now that I've been to checked. I have thought about posts I wanted to write over the last year but didn't get around to them for various reasons.
So I haven't blogged but to be contrary I don't want to let this blog go. Its been something so important to me and through it I have become friends with many many wonderful people. Some I still only know virtually, but I've had the pleasure of meeting so many in real life.
I know other forms of social media are taking more of my attention and I post all the quilts I'm working on still on Instagram (I'm @ShevvyLondon there as well in case you didn't know. I have been sewing in fits and starts. Some months lots, some months none at all. I even finally managed to make a top for myself!
But there has been other stuff going on that I needed to work on. Family stuff.
My family saga would be extreme, even for the crappiest soap opera and some of the plots that make others switch off do actually happen to me.
This years story has been a life changer. Literally.
I found I have have twin younger sisters by my Dad. I didn't think it was possible to loath that man any more than I already did but it turns out I can. If anyone is still reading this blog and wants to tell me I shouldn't hate the man who fathered me, please don't.
The contact with the girls has been shocking, upsetting and dredged up a lot of the past. Its a bit of a minefield because of all the other people involved and dealing with their responses.
Its also been wonderful and joyful and honest and healing and its shown me what strength I have and what love I am capable of and how I can still after all the crap in my life be open and vulnerable.
And I'm so grateful to have the chance to get to know them. Even if its only via Skype and msgs as we are in different countries. But roll on the summer when I will be meeting them face to face.
So thats some of why I haven't blogged. Will I keep it up again? I can't say. What I want and what I do are two different things.